I cannot thank you all enough for writing to me and sharing this burden with me. I am always amazed at the fact that those who are closer to you are usually not "biological" family but some times people I have never met. There is a verse in the Bible in the BOOK OF PROVERBS and it says : "A friend sticks closer than a brother."
Many times I have found this to be true. When something like this happens it is amazing what comes out of the "wood work" as they say. I have had more than many condemnations and mean looks and remarks the last few days; a few people had anything nice to say about or even to me. But what mattered most to me was pleasing my Lord Jesus Christ and Dad's memory, as well as making sure Mom was comforted. My mother in law and I aren't close, never have been. Yet just now she asked me to do her eulogy as well. I have yet to really recover from the past years with Dad, but I told her "yes" and trusting God to give me the words/strength as He did for Dad's.
I was honored to carry him to his final resting place and then sit as they hoisted it up and push it into the crypt him and mom will eventually share. I never knew how heavy those caskets are! But the man from the funeral home said it was an older model and they are different now. The thing weighed over 650 pds all by itself! No wonder it takes all the men it does to carry it!
I broke down after the crypt was closed and I got the ribbon from the flower spray that was on the casket, and one single white rose. White speaks to me of hope. I know that Dad is in heaven with his daughter. There is where there is NO more sorrow, tears, pain, etc. I am glad too that he is reunited with those he had to say good-bye to years ago and missed a whole lot.
I am taking this weekend to rest and give my self a break before beginning the process of all the paperwork, though I had started some of it last Tuesday after Dad was gone because some of the paper work deals with the gov't stuff. Right now though it can wait!
Well, I am going to rest and I will post again soon, again my deepest thanks for all of you who prayed and sent words of condolences. You really touched my heart, thanks.